Why

It took a year for you to "get at someone" yet it took a few months to get over it ??? You always mention how much heartbreaks you had to go through, how much things you had to go through. I had no phones to text , you always try to find a way to contact me.. no matter if you have to use another friends to aim me for a bit or maybe just a few seconds, youd always do it. Now, you just like tak eme for granted even if you say you dont, I can feel it.. I've always been here for you thru thick and thin but I guess you feel like you can do better than that. Maybe you wanted someone prettier or you got bored of me. Man , typing this out makes me wanna tear up hella badly but I'm resisting, until I hop into somewhere that I wont get questioned or embarrass myself. I'm starting to believe what my friend said , how you're just playing someone or using someone. Man , I feel used and stupid, this is embarrassing. I got so mad at first , I just pulled the necklace and it ripped out and it broke ... idk if I should keep wearing it or just throw it away . Its not that you're completely giving me the "it's over " sign, it;s that you treated me so sweetly but then again, you always do the things I dont want you to do. Like, something small ... it affects our relationship. && the fact that you have "better convos" with other makes me.. idk.. jealous ? well... it's like they know youre taken but then again, why do you try so hard to talk to them ? Like you'd ignore me for hours outta nowhere & I see you logged on aim ... then you were active on facebook & you dont even bother to drop bye and say brb but you have the time to aim a girl and talk to her & then liked her status like a few minutes ago & probably most likely talked to her since you requested a longer letter... and it's like the first time seeing you online on aim... what is this? I'm trying so hard not to talk to you anymore, I'm just gonna careless.